20 September 2023, I promise my heart will stop to love you

I am aware that I am in a committed relationship. I am also aware that I have confessed and told you that I have loved you all along. I told you that I love you. You broke my heart, and you made me look stupid.

I promise to myself that I will never be the same again. For every time I leave the city, I will not break my own heart. I will no longer hear sad songs. I will not think of you or what we could have been. I promise to myself that I will let you go.

Midnight 2 September 2023 @ 0005hrs, I gave you the memories you deserve. The night I came to send you the love and the surprise. One day, you will look back. You will think of me, you will think of what we could have been.

I really wish you the best and I promise my heart will stop to love you.

18 September 2023

Facebook is deactivated. I want you to miss me, I want you to miss my absence. You broke my heart. I deserve better. Despite all the heart break, I feel so much better today.

You know sometimes I think about us now and then but I never want to fall again. One day you’ll love me again. One day you’ll love me for sure. One day you’ll wake up feeling how Ive been feeling. One day you realize Im more than your lover, Im your friend.

14 September 2023

‘I miss you’ was the last text from 21 hours ago I texted you. You chose not to see the message, you chose to ignore me. I cannot hate you, i hate having the thought of even trying to hate you. I miss you so much. I cannot help with this feeling. I cannot stop thinking about you. I came to a point where i have to accept the fact that you never were in love with me. You never did. And we both know that we will never belong together. You never love me. You never did. My expectation were high and that is what breaking my heart

Why does it seems right and wrong at the same time

In another world, in another parallel universe, I would choose you all over again. I do believe in this life, we are not meant to be together nevertheless I never deny that you still hold on to the thoughts of me at the back of your mind. There is also no denial that you actually feel the same way as I do. There is so much to say and the agony of swallowing every word is killing me each day.

We came from a different walks of life and desire a different future. I cannot love you in the dark. You cannot be there for me. We both found someone who is meant for us, someone who is capable of loving and caring for us.

I want to wish you the best and the happiness the world can offer yet, that is contradictory.

How is it feasible to love two person at once? Why does it seems right and wrong at the same time?

23 October 2022, Agra – India

Time check: 13 November 2022, Sunday morning at 04:29am.

Such a late post however it’s unbelievable that we get to experience what’s India like.

First day – from airport we had late lunch at WorldMark. WorldMark is located nearest to the Airport where five stars hotels, great restaurants and party place are. We then drove 4 hours to Agra to visit Taj Mahal the next morning. Its the first from one of the seven wonders of the world we visited.

Fascinating facts about Taj Mahal. It took about 17,000 labour to built it, and it was constructed using materials from India and Asia. The craft and designs were made from white marbles, crystals, sapphires, paintings, and arabic words extracted from the Quran. The best time to visit is during sunrise, why? Because of the aforementioned stones, when the sunlight direct towards Taj Mahal, it glows. And everything about it is so symmetrical. The late wife of the King was buried under the Chandelier straight down and the King himself was buried next to her.

Thats me, Tanya and Daria.

Online Certificate to obtain

[1] 01 October 2022, Saturday. [10 Weeks Long] – 12 December 2022

https://pll.harvard.edu/course/cs50-lawyers?delta=0

This course is a variant of Harvard University’s introduction to computer science, CS50, designed especially for lawyers (and law students) U$199 = S$290

  • Computational Thinking
  • Programming Languages
  • Algorithms, Data Structures
  • Cryptography
  • Cybersecurity
  • Internet Technologies, Cloud Computing
  • Web Programming
  • Database Design
  • Cybersecurity, continued
  • Challenges at the Intersection of Law and Technology